{The light at the end of my tunnel}
I have been fairly open with my struggles through parenthood, and I plan to be more open with it in the very near future. I want nothing more than someone else who feels the same way to know they aren’t alone. And also, just to get it out of my head. Maybe mostly that.
I’ve been feeling better lately, at least a little better. I don’t know if it’s because Miles is growing up and is no longer so totally dependent or maybe I’m just handling those moments of total dependence better.
That’s not to say that we don’t both have meltdowns, because we do. Often. More importantly we have moments. Amazing moments that seem to make everything else disappear.
I think I am getting a tiny glimmer of what everyone means when they say
“It’s hard but it’s worth it.”
I can honestly say, I had seen so little of the “it’s worth it” side up until recently.
We’ve had so many good moments lately. He runs to me after work now. I never imagined what it would be like to open the door after a long day and have your child come running to you. It’s better than I could have ever imagined so I’m glad I didn’t.
When times get hard, or I feel myself slipping, I remind myself that he is the light at the end of my tunnel. He is what is waiting on the other side for me. He will come running..
{You Capture – A Moment}