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My light..

{The light at the end of my tunnel}

I have been fairly open with my struggles through parenthood, and I plan to be more open with it in the very near future. I want nothing more than someone else who feels the same way to know they aren’t alone. And also, just to get it out of my head. Maybe mostly that.

I’ve been feeling better lately, at least a little better. I don’t know if it’s because Miles is growing up and is no longer so totally dependent or maybe I’m just handling those moments of total dependence better.

That’s not to say that we don’t both have meltdowns, because we do. Often. More importantly we have moments. Amazing moments that seem to make everything else disappear.
I think I am getting a tiny glimmer of what everyone means when they say

“It’s hard but it’s worth it.”

I can honestly say, I had seen so little of the “it’s worth it” side up until recently.

We’ve had so many good moments lately. He runs to me after work now. I never imagined what it would be like to open the door after a long day and have your child come running to you. It’s better than I could have ever imagined so I’m glad I didn’t.

When times get hard, or I feel myself slipping, I remind myself that he is the light at the end of my tunnel. He is what is waiting on the other side for me. He will come running..

{You Capture – A Moment}


  1. house-of-boys says

    I don't know about your struggles with being a Mom, but I only hope that life gets easier. If all else fails, just remember that the days are long but the years are short.

  2. Eppyville says

    Love your pic this week…and yeah, anyone who doesn't struggle with parenthood one way or another has to be superhuman. We have our meltdowns too…but my daughter does so many other things that make me laugh and smile that really do make up for those other moments…I look at everything now and its hard to imagine that we ever lived life without her.

  3. Adventures In Babywearing says

    Such a great image to go with your words. Let me tell you, even with four, I feel those same ups and downs (and lots of downs.) It's hard, it doesn't get easier, but we get stronger,

    and it's a good, good thing. :)


  4. That is a great photo. Love it. We all have ups and downs. Life is all about the moments. I'm glad you have many good ones.

  5. this was really fantastic! I loved it… such a great image and a truly relatable post… there are definatly darker seasons than others…

  6. Love this picture, and your post. I definitely have my share of hard times as a mom, but then a good day will come along, and I know I can carry on.

  7. ohabbyreally says

    What an honest post. And I love your picture this week, just beautiful. I hope you both have many more lovely moments together this week.

  8. shellycoulter says

    Sweet post. Appreciate your honesty. I like your picture too!

  9. What a fun shot!
    And please, be honest with your struggles. I can promise, we've all been there… and if we haven't, we can at least relate to struggling.

  10. Love that photo!

    I don't have children so I don't have any words of wisdom for you but I do hope it gets better for you soon.

  11. It does get easier, and then you miss them! My daughter is in school all day now. Sometimes I wihs that I could go back to her being a baby for just a few hours. Really even though I love babies, in my opinion, it just keeps getting better as they get older.

  12. Upstatemomof3 says

    Great picture!! I too have had a difficult time as of late! Things are starting to get better here too. I think sharing it helps. I think getting it out there helps. And knowing that you are not alone is so important!

  13. great angle!

  14. That is a great shot, seriously.

    I yelled at the kids today for wanting cookies. And whining. They are just being kids, but JEEZ, sometimes it is hard.


  15. Stillmary says

    I love the light in this very interesting perspective. Great capture!

  16. I love that you are honest about your struggles. I just commented on Steph's blog about how I struggle with the thought of being a parent someday. When I was younger, I wanted kids and planned to have a couple by now– then my life played out different than planned and I'm not sure if I will ever be ready to have kids. I fear that I am too selfish for it or that I won't be able to deal with the 'meltdown' moments. I have so much respect for you and all the other moms out there who admit to the struggles and work through them openly and honestly. You help me know that someday I might be able to make the mommy thing work!

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