I’m a talker.
If you come within listening distance of me, there is a good chance you will know more than you ever wanted to know about my life in a VERY short time.
BUT.. I’m also a complainer.

I learned a few years ago that if I don’t tell people what’s going on, it doesn’t give me an outlet to complain and thus, makes me deal with the situation better.

I didn’t tell ANYONE I was pregnant with Miles until almost 20 weeks. I didn’t tell anyone about my divorce for almost 4 months. And this time I haven’t told many people about my journey to reclaim my body before I start on my 2^nd surrogacy journey.

Because doesn’t it always kinda suck to lose weight? And get healthier?? I know I’d WAY rather be a couch potato and eat whatever I want. (Today that would be a big huge bacon cheeseburger with a side of cheese enchiladas.)

I’m a month and a week into this journey. I HAVE TO get healthier before getting pregnant again (in 2 short months). I HAVE TO stay healthier this next pregnancy.

So it’s been 15 weeks since the day I got home from the hospital. I am officially down 28 pounds. (But down 15 in the month I have been ACTIVELY trying to get healthier.

I feel amazing. 15 pounds isn’t that much. But it’s made a huge difference to me. I put on a pair of jeans 4 digits smaller. Just returned 5 new shirts I bought so I could get a smaller size.

I have about 2 full months left before we are on to Surrogacy round 2! Nothing like losing a bunch of weight just to get pregnant again!
So now that you know.. don’t let me complain! :)

Tonight, I’m asking Aaron to take the “before” picture to go with my after picture.

(no, this is not going to become a weight loss blog, I promise)

I hate diets, I don’t believe in them. But I’m also not one of those people that will preach to you about “life style changes.”

Sure, I think most of us could improve the way we eat, but if you start putting rules on it, the majority of us will fail.

Under my trainers suggestion (YES, I have a trainer, and I love him for all the ways he makes me cry..) I am going to venture out and try the newest fad. (I hate the way that sounds as much as you do.) He promised me he is seeing fantastic results with this from people who are really dedicated to making it last and work. He says he won’t even recommend it to people who aren’t faithful gym attendees. So I guess I paid my tithe. (I kid.. sorta..)

It’s called the 17 Day Diet. I know how bad it sounds, but it’s not that bad. It’s real food, not just grapefruit for a month. It’s a great way to 1)detox and cleanse then 2) just start your metabolism.

There is a new study that shows rapid weight loss can be more beneficial to someone who is committed. Because they see that instant result and fight harder. That’s me. I need my instant gratification then to fight for it. I need that.

But, I know my limits and I know December isn’t the time for me to start. With family, and Christmas and Miles’s birthday. It just isn’t the time.

But January, January is my time. I am free, and open and have nothing better to do than drop 20 pounds that month! (especially after the 2 pound gain over Thanksgiving. GAH!)

I am very proud of myself though. In the past month I have only missed 2 days (other than Sundays) at the gym. I don’t feel stronger or healthier or have more energy YET.. but I am sticking with it. Because I know it will make a better me.